I've been thinking about a word to live with in 2014 and this is the one that keeps coming back. Persevere. I was hoping for a happier word but a happier word didn't find me.
2013 was a year of change for us. I still feel strongly that the change was a good one but it hasn't been easy. I don't expect 2014 to be any easier.
Winston. Perseverance incarnate. He's at a difficult age and some days I just don't have the energy to deal with his antics. I know there is a sane brave horse who wants to get it right underneath his six year old skin, its just hard to see right now. I am going to work with him on the lunge line before riding. I can effectively deal with naughty moments from the ground. If he is naughty while I am on his back and I get dumped, that is encouraging/rewarding the behavior. I will ride him but only when he is relaxed, focused and obedient. Only then. I will continue to have Katy work with him as well. Her approach is kind but firm and she is strongly rooted in the basics.
Sedona. We will continue to give her pain pills and as many table scraps as she wants. As long as she eats and trots with her tail in a happy curl, she will continue to bury her bones and sleep on the porch and chase squirrels at Oak Creek Ranch. I hope she perseveres a long time. I'm not ready to say good-bye. I'm not sure I ever will be; she's the best dog I've known.
Fences. The pasture fences are brittle and breaking. It is going to take a lot of time and effort -- not to mention money -- to replace and reinforce all of them. This is Brett's project, but its a fund sapping one and not very exciting.
Finances. An ugh category for sure. My new job pays significantly less than my position in Southern California. Brett is fully retired. Both of these were planned and done with no regrets. Learning to live on less with two kids in college and a money pit property is difficult. No vacation in 2014.
The job. I have no regrets about taking my new job. It's interesting and I love working for an organization with faith based values. I've been in the position for eight months now and the learning curve is still steep. Some days I feel completely out of my comfort zone and like I will never understand the Sacramento market. Other days, I get it right all by myself. I'm going to persevere and hope I get there. ...that the "feeling competent" days outnumber the "feeling stupid" days.
The house. This part is going well. There are a few things, such as curtains in the kids' rooms, that still need to be done but the house is very comfortable. I still love, love, love this house.
Garden. Oy, lots to do here. When I look at the garden with its dead fruit trees and weeds, it is overwhelming. Brett built me a beautiful planter box. I ordered new fruit trees. I will slowly remove the debris and a garden will emerge. I'm going to try to enjoy the process and the journey.
As I try to persevere, I will continue to be thankful for all of you who comment and encourage me. I rely on your advice and wisdom more than you can imagine. Thank you so much. I wish all of you a happy New Year.